So residency is super challenging; its not the time of my life & internship year was not even the most challenging year of my life, but it did suck me dry all the same. Really, spirit demolition. I reflected on this the other day while hiking....when did this happen? Was it medical school? Was it a divorce? Who, what, when, & where & what the fuck? My conclusion: probably gradual, likely all of 'em & mostly the intern year. I told James my spirit was broken & he said it was the saddest thing he'd ever heard me say. I'm sure its not; probably the saddest thing he's heard from my mouth is, "Hey, we're outta of Texas toast". Then he promptly asked what I'm gonna do about that. Well, I'm not sure yet but I decided I'd better do something. I need a soul but with improvements. So, what next?..... It is all set in motion by running.....running heals the soul. Running is my church. Its my time in my head. I work things out......I'm working things out.....I will work everything out.....Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Oops....I see your soul; its poking through your.....Installment #1: A what the fuck moment...my soul is zombie.....-ish
So residency is super challenging; its not the time of my life & internship year was not even the most challenging year of my life, but it did suck me dry all the same. Really, spirit demolition. I reflected on this the other day while hiking....when did this happen? Was it medical school? Was it a divorce? Who, what, when, & where & what the fuck? My conclusion: probably gradual, likely all of 'em & mostly the intern year. I told James my spirit was broken & he said it was the saddest thing he'd ever heard me say. I'm sure its not; probably the saddest thing he's heard from my mouth is, "Hey, we're outta of Texas toast". Then he promptly asked what I'm gonna do about that. Well, I'm not sure yet but I decided I'd better do something. I need a soul but with improvements. So, what next?..... It is all set in motion by running.....running heals the soul. Running is my church. Its my time in my head. I work things out......I'm working things out.....I will work everything out.....
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oh sweet jane...it makes me sad to hear you say your spirit is broken. IMPOSSIBLE i say! You have one of the strongest spirits in this world. so it has taken a few hits...feels a little lost at times...but make no mistake about it...your spirit is strong and only getting stronger. i marvel at the things you challenge yourself with and you always come out a better person. so head up sweet jane...keep running and kicking ass!
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Oh I love you so much, my sweet, sweet girl! You always make me feel more at peace, always....kiss
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